An inquiry into ones own shell of conditioning is self-inquiry

Each one of us built a wall of conditioning around us and lurk behind the wall which prevents

relating to other in actuality. In daily life it is the walls of conditioning that are related which is

no relationship at all and it results in constant friction and contradiction, be it with society or

other individual. The whole process is socially sanctioned self isolation because considers this

isolation as relationship. You are building the wall of conditioning and caught in the process.

Your intelligence says to get rid of this wall. The awareness that you are giving energy to

building up of conditioning is enough for dissolution of wall between you and the other.

There is a need to protect one physically in form of food and shelter. But same protecting attitude

superimposes on psyche also resulting in conditioning which is none other than “me” and “mine”.

But is there any need or possibility to protect the “inner” which is unknowable. Conditioning is known.

Are we protecting the inner or or we protecting the “conditioning in the name of protecting the inner.

When self protection becomes a psychological necessity it leads to wrong relationship with the other

with intention of exploiting him. There is no inward protection by itself. Because you are uncertain

inwardly you cling to ideas, beliefs, values, dogmas and you feel seeming certainty in the inner.

But these are not independent of outward things. Real inward perception render all the outward things

and the beliefs and ideas as of no significance. Conditioning is the outcome of sensory values.

Trouble arises when we use outward things like property lead to psychological self protection.

Outward things have no value in themselves but we imagine they protect us inwardly and mind values

them. Things made by the mind are illusory. So through sensory perceptions, you are trying to

protect that which is non-sensory and which is beyond senses and so unknown. To find out

that which is behind the wall made by senses, you have to go through the wall and so you

will go beyond it. This is self-inquiry. There is no use of deceiving ourselves doing self-inquiry

keeping the wall of conditioning intact. In this way we will never go beyond the wall and so taste the

unknowable which is beyond senses. But in daily life we are all the time go on strenthening the wall.

So we are not only protecting the wall of conditioning but protecting it. You can neither protect nor

destroy the “inner” which you do not know. So what you are doing is a foolish thing.

Never forget that conditioningis made up of mind’s tricks. The wall is a product of desire and

its object.The qualifier of judging and valuing is the conditioned wall. We are perceiving things

hrough that screen and so our perception is distorted. Seeing its transiency the conditioned wall

creates a higher which it considers permant in terms of time. The conditioning always tries to do

something for certainty. Even it considers self-inquiry as a means to find something permanant.

But self-inquiry is to penetrate the conditioning through and through and going beyond it and

discovering the unknowable. Self-inquiry has no goal by itself, it just observes conditioning is

the cause of human misery and in that understanding we go beyond conditioning. Conditioning

is “me” and “mine”.At present conditioning is trying to judge the “unknowable inner” which is

impossible to conditioning. Unknowable can come into existence when all conditioning evaporates

hrough understanding of it.As long as conditioning exists it continues to do mischief. The barrier

between you and other only through understanding of conditioning. This is self-inquiry. You cannot

“do” anything about the wall because wall does not exists, it is a fictious creation of thought.

So any “doing” is strenthening the wall. Non-doing is self-inquiry. The shell of conditioning
Dr.P.V.S.Suryanarayana Raju
apparently limits our consciousness. The shell disappears just by pure observation. Then we recognize

unity with rest of consciousness and our vision is infinite. There is no longer the illusion of “me” and “mine”.

So thinking process thinks in an impersonal way, it is no longer self centred. Then we love irrespective of

what shell they contain.


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